Waxing Poetic

Ahh, Gentle Reader, There's a Sara Evans' song that says, "I didn't know nothin' 'bout love, I learned that from you .". I'd like to tell you the things I've learned from my Sweetie.  I thought I knew what love felt like, what passion was, what it meant to be safe in someone’s arms. I have learned what these things are, and so much more.  I have learned what it is to ugly cry and not feel ugly, but to be held and consoled and comforted. I have learned what it is to see my beloved ugly cry, and not find it ugly, but beautiful that they trust me with their innermost thoughts, fears, and pain. They know that they are safe with me. That is beautiful. I have learned what it is to scream to the heavens with such passion I am more animal than human. That is beautiful. I have learned that sometimes I need to lean into their strength, when mine fails. But other times, they need to borrow some of my strength, and that is a beautiful gift to give and receive....

     Ahh, gentle reader,     Today has been a rough day; This whole week has, to be honest. And one of the the things that has gotten me through it is my beloved betrothed , my Sweetie. I can't say enough good things about them. But I'm gonna try. 😉     Any time that I am struggling, sometimes when I don't even see it , they are there. They reassure me, and remind me of stuff I need to do, and support me in any way they possibly can. They cook for me when I'm too tired, or in too much pain. They read to me when I have bad dreams, so their voice is the last thing I hear before sleep. They do every single little or big thing that they can to make my life easier and happier.      I've been thinking about that a lot this week. And I think a big part of it, aside from their unending compassion , is that they also have ADHD, and they GET me in a way that NO ONE ever has. They understand that having a "Bride" tumbler with a straw and lid made...

      Ahh, gentle reader,     Today, I confessed to my Sweetie how very sad I am that my special tumbler that said "Bride" on it is gone. I got it at a Bridal Expo, and it probably cost them a dollar to make/decorate. But it was the ONLY item I had that confirmed my engaged status. I proposed to my Sweetie, so I didn't get a ring. And we ordered me one later, but it was a spinner, and I wash my hands with bar soap far too often for that to work. So my tumbler was like, THE THING I had that made me think of our upcoming wedding. Also, I used it to mix up sugar free lemonade, because the straw was perfect for that.       I'm diabetic, so having sugar free drinks is very important. And it made it just the tiniest bit easier, and more likely for me to make lemonade than to drink something else. Or not drink and get dehydrated...      So, I was all up in my feels, and told them how sad I was over the loss of my beloved cup (I dro...